Today we woke up without water! So after working out I tooke a "shower" by cups of cold water! That will wake you up!!! So we're all cleanISH here! :)
After getting ourselves up, packed up, cleanISH, breakfast... We headed to the creche. B was upstairs getting her hair done! So, I got to watch how to do another hair style! Very good lessons for me. As I sat there wishing I could just take over... even though I have NO idea what I would be doing... I was thinking about how someone else gets to do my daughter's hair, wash her, dress her, provide for her... and how badly I wish it was me. Being our last day made all these thoughts come to the fore front of my mind. How I long for the days that it is ME doing all these things for my sweet girl. I would have cried right there in the baby chair if I could have... but I think the nannies already think we are crazy, and I wasn't looking to make them feel like I'm any MORE crazy! :)
ANYWAY.... After her hair was done it was breakfast, medicine, and then we went up and played in the grass. She feels the most comfortable having me let her down while we are up there. So she got down and played with her friends and it was awesome to see! I love watching how she interacts with the other kids. After a bit of too much sass we went downstairs and hung out. She wanted to chase The Bash a little bit... but mostly just ran around and then back to me. Ran around.. Then back to me.
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| The Bash and he best friends! He sure misses them! |
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| B and her Friend E |
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| Playing with a random metal bar is not out of the ordinary for them. Anything and everything is a toy.... |
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| The Grassy area is up on top of their land. It's a fun place for the kids to play! |
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| The kids got a special treat! Sugar Cane. They let The Bash have some... he thought it was GOOD! |
We had a fun surprise for us today as well. We got to meet Benito (who B is named after!) That was an awesome opportunity, and it helped us get just one more piece to B's past. It was a blessing for us for sure (and hopefully for B when she gets older).
About her normal time she snuggled in for a little nap. We sat there snuggled up for a long time. Right up until it was time to go. I tried to memorize her little face, hands... whatever I could as we sat there. Tried to imprint her smell into my head. Tried to just soak up every second I could for as long as I could.
Then... Clock striked 12:30 and it was time for us to head back to eat and finish packing up. The Bash was in tears... He was NOT ready to leave all his buddies. He was not ready to leave B. He just hates saying good-bye... I do too... but him crying helped me not to... I had to be strong for him, and so I will do my crying at another time! The Man took B up to her room to finish her nap. She clung to him for the first time this week and didn't want to let go. It was a precious moment for those two that I had been praying for.
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| Daddy and his Girl |
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| The Bash not crying because he didn't want to go home. These two boys put their arms around him to console him. Such a sweet moment. |
We finished our lunch and headed to the airport. The trip to the airport is quite a trip! I love the ride. The driving is mad, and the sites are amazing. It's just a great drive. This time getting to the airport was not as frightening as last time.
RIght now I sit in the plane headed to KC and my heart is torn. I'm SOOOOOO excited to be home and sleep in MY bed and have life be a little more back to 'normal.' But I long for our family to be together for forever. I dream of the days where our home is HOME to all of us. I cannot wait for our home to be filled with one sassy loud little lady. I'm excited to watch The Bash be the big brother he already is without any practice.... I just cannot wait... I'm tired of waiting... and I HATE thinking about what B is thinking right now. I pray the Lord fills her heart with His love, and that she realizes how much we truly love her.
I know a lot of you feel it too. Your encouragement and prayers continue to push us through the good days and the hard days. I got a text from my mama and it said: "I read your last blog and I cried and then couldn't sleep so I prayed all night." I said: "Ma, don't cry. We know that God is good, and we put our hope in that." As I sit and want to cry about this... I know that God is good... and that His faithfulness, love, and strength will get us through this moment and the next. May we all continue to rely on Him in each moment.... because how else would we get by?
LOVE YOU ALL!!!!
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