B woke up kinda her normal timid self. Not sure what to think. We let her lay there to wake up, and then I pulled her over to snuggle and check out what The Bash was doing. The Man started the shower (it takes a bit to warm up) while we woke up. Once things were warm B took a shower (I THINK her first). She was not so sure what to think about it, but I think she liked it. She washed herself and then we got her dressed and ready for the day.
The kids and dad watched a little show, while mom worked out. Then we headed out for some play time. This morning B was ready to go. She talked to us more and sooner, She was very interactive with all of us. She was laughing and having a good time. We played games, played some beats with some drum sticks, painted pictures, chased each other, stacked blocks, and just had a good 'ol time. We ate lunch together and then headed over to the creche.
There was NOT a whole lot going on, but I wanted a nanny to work with me on how to do B's hair. So we found a nanny that was willing. She did all but a little and let me get my hands in there to do the braids. So I got a very mini tutorial on how to do B's hair. I feel betterish about that whole ordeal. The good thing is, I don't have to work... so I should be able to work on that girl's hair all day if need be! :) She likes to sit and cuddle a lot, so I can get some good practice time in then!
After that B was tired and actually ended up taking a nap on me, while the kids ran around and we decorated for B's party. Benito stopped over and we met with him. I'd love to tell you more of that story.... just not at this time.... hopefully soon though! Anyway we talked with him, and then the "party" started. The party was mainly us being mobbed by the kids wanting all the goodies we brought. It was craziness. We also brought nanny gifts and let B hand them out and give hugs to them. It was sweet to see how much the nannies love her... and hard... hard to see her have to say good-bye to these women that have been her mamas for so long.
We left soon after handing out all the goods. We came back and vegged out. Be was tired. I was tired... We were all tired (except maybe The Bash... does he ever get tired?). So we played a little ipad books and then a couple puzzles and memory. It was good, but really dazed. We ate dinner and B did not eat too much. Not super surprizing she had eaten a lot that day. After dinner she pretty much just wanted me to hold her. We walked around the halls and just watched everyone else.
Right around bed time we started brushing teeth and I changed her clothes. I had her take off her shoes and she lost it. I really wasn't even going to try and put her to sleep tonight. Just walk the halls and let it happen... but she started to cry and could not contain herself. So despite my efforts of a low-key evening and a better night of getting her to sleep... we had another rought hour of full on crying. It was insane at some points. She was kicking and screaming and crying so loud. Some times I had to set her on the bed and let her scream and cry there because she was moving around so much I couldn't hold her. I would just hold my hands out and when she was ready she would come back to get a hug. She did that for a good hour. I can only imagine the fear and hurt she must feel. It breaks my heart each time. I could feel my heart just beating and breaking... But we continued on... I kept hugging and holding her. Giving her space, yet not leaving her... and then... without warning... She is done. She stops crying. Barries her head on my shoulder... and is fast asleep. I sit there rocking her and crying.
If we have an amazing day, and have an hour each night of full on crying... I'll take it. I honestly think it would be more alarming if she didn't cry through all this situation.... But my mama heart breaks so much when it happens.
ALSO, side news... we do have other people here at the guest house with us. That has been nice to have other people to interact with and talk to during down times. It can get a bit lonely here. ALSO... it just so happens that they are photographers here to take pictures for C4C... So we will get some awesome pictures of B's gotcha day tomorrow! HOORAY!
THANK YOU again for everyone's messages yesterday. They are so encouraging to us. We appreciate them so much.
Please pray for us as we have a LONG journey home tomorrow. Please pray for safe travels and smooth travels. Pray for patience and peace.
WE CANNOT WAIT TO BE HOME!!!!!!!!
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